It all started in 1972,I was 8 years olds,
My mom and a friend of hers went out to play
bingo. Well the one that was baby-sitting for
her was supposed to be a friend of hers, which
turned out not to be. Anyway mom had got us
all ready for bed and had put us to bed before
she had left us in the care of this man (her
friend), well she had left us with him.
I had got up and went to the rest room
that was in the boy's room at the time.
There was a cubbyhole (That was an
L shape) at the bathroom door, and when
I can out he grabbed me and threw me on
my mom's bed. Then her raped me. When
my mom got home I told her what had happen.
Yea she became angry and called the law on him,
he went to jail but only until court.
When we went to court they let the guy
off. I don't know what happen after that,
because I blocked it all out.
Then when I was 14 and old enough to
have boyfriends. And I did and he was a doll to me.
You know the teen years and a girl's first love.
Well I had mine but my step-dad didn't approve
of me having a boyfriend. I could not understand
way he was like that. I told him time and time
again that he was not my dad and that if my mom
said that I could see him then I was going to
see him and that there was nothing he could do
about it. Well I was wrong about that because
there was something that he could do and he did.
He told the boy that if he came anywhere near
me again that he would kill him.
(I found out all that later.)
Well the reason he was like that was because he was
jealous of me and wanted me for hisself.
I found out that was the reason when my
little sister was sick and my mom had been
up all night and all the next day with her.
So I told my mom that I would put her
in my bed that night and watch after her,
so that she could get some sleep. Well later
that night after everyone was a sleep,
My step-dad came to my room and tried to
get me to mess around with him.
I told him to get out and that I was
going to tell my mom. He told that if
I did tell he would deny that it ever
happened. But my mom believed me when
I told her because she knows how he had
been acting around me with the looks and
the way he was when my boyfriend came over.
Well my mom left he that day and we have
not heard from him since then.
Now that brings us to 1979 when I
met my fist husband. We had been in
Meridian about 6 to 8 months before
I met him. Well that started a whole new
live for me. A live with drugs and alcohol
before I was 17. I remember taking
pills and drinking from the age of 16
until I was 21. He would tell me that
if I didn't it was because I didn't love him.
Well I thought that I did love him and
I did at the time. Well it got to be where
I liked the drugs and alcohol so much that
it started running my life for me.
Well any way we got married in 1981 and
then he started change right before my eyes.
He got mean and started hitting on me.
I got pregnant 6 different times and
I lost all 6 of my babies from the beatings,
drugs and alcohol, which I was doing just
so I would not feel the pain that I received
from him and his beatings. After the last time
that he beat me it was after I found out that
he was see a sixteen year old girl.
I took a good long look at my life and
said to my self-no more I'm better then this.
I left him and met my husband now.
Well as you can see I have survived and I
have a new life now.
Story By Brainy Binky aka Sister MaryGaye
